running or slow down - when and where?!?
Sometimes I have the impression that I should slow down a bit. I feel like running around all the time. This is not particularly bad, actually I love it and I need it in order not to get bored. Still, there are days when I ask myself where am I running and probably the way more difficult question, where will I stay? When I ask myself where my home is, then this is quite a difficult question to answer. There is my parents place, which is my home but except my family and few friends there is nothing that keeps me in this small town. Then there is Geneva, which I really got to like. But all my friends here are not from Geneva and they will leave in 2 years. And then there are all my friends all around the world. It is actually really difficult for me to define what a place needs to feel like home. There are people that made me feel like at home in a very short time on the other side of the globe. But is it just about people, or is it more? And what people? Your family, your best friends, your boy/girlfriend?On one hand I am so excited when I think about the future, about all the places I want to visit, about all the people I will meet. And still, there remains this question. All friends steadily moving away, same as me. When will I stay somewhere and out of what reason, and where will this place be?
But in the end I know it will just come as it comes. Where ever... I stay tuned :)
By the way I want to say thanks to all the people that made it to my party. was really cool to have you all around, even though there was too much wine... But it gave me a feeling of: Yes, Geneva is the place to be, at least for me in this moment!
But in the end I know it will just come as it comes. Where ever... I stay tuned :)
posted by regula at
11:25 PM
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I can REALLY relate to this post of yours :-) Mostly to the where-is-home part, and whereabouts I will be, like, after my studies. Gosh. I guess home is where the heart is, so I am home wherever I have family, friends and my boyfriend. About what's next, yes, I am excited, but ... I don't know. Look forward to leaving and hate it at the same time. Maybe it's also Geneva-specific. Hardly any of our close friends actually are from Geneva, so why stay after your studies, right? And shall I keep on running, or slow down?
I have slowed down, a lot, but it's boring me death as well :-s Only focusing on my studies for more than two months is terrible, haha. At the same time, however, I know it would be better for my health to slow down :-) And to take time to see all the things passing me by, the things that I haven't seen when I was running.
Anyways, "come what may". And you have two more years here, so enjoy the ride while you still can I'd say...and yes, a very cool party it was indeed :-) Plus, you still have enough time to worry where you'll be once you finish your studies, trust me ;-)
Hugs from a dinosaur, LOL (did I just hear my back crack...?)
Home is a floating concept that takes its full meaning when you decide it does...it kind of grows inside of you when you let the place, the people, the rythm of life catch you...at least for a moment...
Aida
Welcome to the thirdyearinGenevawhereshoudlIgoafterwardsblues. Went through exactly the same pretty much the same 4 years ago. Ended for me in a new relationship by the way, but that's another story.
regi,
thanx for the housewarming party, it was great!!:-) plein de fou-rires, en tout cas ;-)
very interesting thoughts on this ever-returning dilemma of 'home'-what is it to me, where is it? obviously i haven't found the answer yet either, but it definitely is very present for me too, having 1 year left here... but philosophical questions will have to wait till tomorrow, it's not good to start on thoughts like this after a week in portugal at a certain conference... need sleep :-)
hugs.
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