why is it so difficult to be average?

I just realized that I am totally average. already my name indicates it, Regula(r). But also in university I am just average, not too good, not too bad. The same also counts for myself. Average height, average size, not fat not skinny. I even come from the totally average town, Langenthal. This is the place where they make all the surveys in Switzerland, average...
I mean objectively it is not bad to be average. So why was it for me so difficult to accept that I am average? Why being special, better than the others? Probably I am a realist, that values relative gains not a liberal, that would value absolute gains and not compare to others.
Most probably I just care too much about my place within a group. I should just see myself as a individual and not as a part compared to the group... Still, quite difficult to put into practice.