%*&?ç%&*%!!$£&* - DAY

ok, today was definitely a freaking day. really. here in short why:

- 2 exams - both really random and i had to invent stuff (hopefully i will pass them)
- i just got to know that I failed one of the exams (the prof told us that he didn't care whether we are native or not. he expects everything perfectly explained in the best Spanish ever. vale...puto....)
- this means i have to take another class in Geneva (which makes it not easier to pass all the exams including final exams in June.)
- no, it's not over. so far, these were all more or less my faults. but now comes something which is really not our fault. actually to get our marks we have to get a paper signed by the prof and three different secretariats - per faculty we are in. (this is a very different story than what they told us in the beginning how it works) anyways, this we can only do once they have our marks, which is not before next week. BUT, we all have to go back because university starts the week after and i am going to IPM.

WHY....????? I hate these days......

And just to top everything, when I went to the shop to get a bottle of wine (a reason for drinking can always be found...) this bottle was 3 times as expensive as written on it on the shelf but the queue so long that I really didn't want to go back and get another bottle....

Ok, tomorrow everything is going to be better, at least I hope so.

Things I want to do in my life

There are some things I really want to do in my life

- dress up and go to the Opera
- see the Matterhorn
- tell someone that I love him
- travel around Latin America
- keep my friends
- get new ones
- work for a company I really believe in
- go snowboarding in the Rockies
- get a tattoo
- do skydiving
- finish university =)
- have loads of talks with friends
- challenge myself in a very difficult period
- improve my Spanish
- go to concerts of bands which I like
- have my own flat
- cross the Sahara
- learn everyday something new
- invent something
- have enough money to live
- work in a foreign country
- become more patient
- climb a mountain
- step out of my comfort zone
- travel foreign countries with my partner
- do something nice without wanting something back
- learn salsa dancing
- go to the Oktoberfest
- work in a team
- sing a song
- ...

There would be loads more, but these are just some that come to my mind at the moment.

Song of the Moment: Lunik - Through your eyes

My new Team

Curious about the future

First of all, I want to thank all that were there for a very nice time in Switzerland, Barcelona and Madrid over the holidays. I really had a blast and will not forget the time so fast =)

In my past life there was probably never a time of so much uncertainty as there is now. It's something I usually don't like, but that's probably very good that I have to go through this. I am quite sure, whatever happens, in some time I will be able to connect the dots backwards.
Soon I will know more about all the things occupying my head. Things will be sorted out, others messed up, fears faced and probably causes lost. Then it will be the time to move on with all the things I got out of these quite troublesome but exciting times.
Life is an Adventure and I am very curious what it brings....

Music of the Moment: Guru's Jazzmatazz

Half time over

Everything is soo fast. I am now nearly 3 months in Madrid, which means, more than half of the time I will spend here. If I think back, it seems such a short time that I am here. But this is normal I guess. There have been many great moments so far. Travelling around in Spain to Salamanca, Cordoba, Toledo and Sevilla, all the people I got to know. Ira, the German gang from university, the mc, Spanish aiesecers and many more. I guess I have never been out so much as here. Ok, I am not going to clubs so often, but going for a drink or so seems to belong to the programme here. These are always the best moments of the day. Chilling, chatting and so on. I also really got used to the rhythm here, and it's actually getting difficult to go to sleep earlier than 3 am. Never mind, I’ll get used to the Swiss timing soon enough.
There have also been some challenges here for sure, finding a flat, my flatmate, dealing with the banks or just generally not always being able to express myself that well in Spanish and now sitting in the library and writing papers. So what, everyone has to do this, and at least I can do these here. Madrid, the place I still can go for something to eat after 10 pm, where there are sooo many people in the streets (even though the shops are closed) wearing wigs just because it's Christmastime and where they are having the ugliest Christmas lights I’ve seen (just for your information. Christmas lights in Spain use up as much electricity as a 50.000 people town in a year), but so what, that's Madrid. Sometimes you don't have to ask and just accept and enjoy it. And that's definitely what I do here.
¿Buenas, nos vemos en Madrid, no?

Madrid is great

This is just going to be a very short post whose main message should be positive. I know in the last few posts I was very negative. I was stressed because of not having a flat to live in, then about all the insecurities with the university and also because I did not have Internet at home.
Now all this worked out. I have Internet, thanks to Juan, I am getting used to the comunication style of my flatmate, I did my inscription for university, paid the fee and also got the confirmation from HEI. Today I also handed in my first paper in Spanish, had a presentation in one of the courses and generally feel like things work out.
Now I can dedicate my time again to going out, eating tapas, chatting for hours with Ira and Sarah, working on AIESEC stuff (which can be fun, really, I mean why would I do it otherwise), learning about Real Madrid to be prepared for the next Champions League match which we will hopefully watch in the Bernabeu Stadium, pick topics for my papers, try to speak more Spanish, maybe even do some exercises, right sports wouldn't be too bad, but maybe also cook again this really tasty "Rösti with Zürigeschnetzeltem" as we did last Saturday, get to know the best clubs in town, even better bars, do some shopping (if I have enough money), travel around Spain or at least in the region of Madrid, finish "kite runner" and start "don Quijote", watch "Cheroes" (Heroes but pronounced in Spanish), getting to know more people and places, short, to enjoy life.
Madrid is great.

Choices

The last few days I spent looking for a flat. I was imagining something like the flat in Auberge Espagnole, few people from different countries, always something going on etc. I mean something really cool. Unfortunately most of the students here looking for a flat must have seen this film as well. So whenever I went to visit one of these cool places, I was maybe number 25. That came to visit this same flat on this day. The weird thing is, that the people renting the flats do not even take note or ask you anything special. They just show you the rooms, tell you what the price is and then that they will call me tomorrow if I was selected. Now I really don't get how they will select the best person if they do not have any measurable etc. (Which can only be the appearance of the person, as they don't ask anything). Anyways, they are probably waiting for the person that gives them this "feeling".
Obviously I was not really motivated anymore going to this kind of flat. I mean I can spend my time better than travelling for 45 minutes to a place that I visit for 5 minutes and where I am told that they'll call me.

Yesterday evening I went to this flat just 2 Minutes away from the MC flat and in a quite good area, I mean one of those where you can still walk back after going out and where the next Metro is just some minutes away. Anyways, I went there and was received by a woman of maybe 35 years in a very small but neat place. The room is ok, small but has everything you need. Same for the flat. There is Internet (maybe the most important thing of all) a kitchen, small salon and a bathroom.

Now came the difficult part of it. Do I take it? I mean this was one of the flats that you can actually get. But then all these thoughts of this really cool place with loads of fun people to hang around. Should I keep searching for a flat? Will I maybe find the thing I am looking for? Or should I just take this one and be glad that I don't have to search anymore....
This morning I went there and paid the caution. Even though I just fund out that I have to wait another week until I can move in. This means I have to ask the MC people if it is ok if I stay here in their place for another week. Anyways, I paid it. The money is gone, and I could still change if I found something incredible (just have to tell her like 10 days before or so) and anyways, as I know me I will be either in my room doing stuff on the computer or anywhere in the city. But, the doubts remain... Should I ... Could I... Would it be better if...?

When it comes to choices I am usually quite bad. Actually I make my decisions very quickly but then I am one of the people that want to "keep the door open" for any other opportunity that might appear. Who know MBTI knows that this is typically "P".
But now I closed the door as I paid the money. Or.... (As I was walking back from paying I was already thinking about the excuse I could use to get my money back in case I would find something else, better, cooler whatever) Really, I will probably never change.